I Will Be

So one way that God speaks to me is through music.  I can listen to 2Pac and hear the love/story of Christ in the lyrics.  I love music. Of course the Lord would use it.  So, I have a very old Dell Ditty ipod thingy that I found as I was rummaging through my crap to pack, so I took it with me to jog/walk.  Who knows what is on that thing??

I step outside and the wind is going wild.  LOVE IT.  We are having some nutty tropical storm in FL right now, the clouds are moving rapidly. I quickly walked a few laps just rambling to God.  Celine Dion's song Im Alive came on and I picked it up a notch.  I love that song.  Everything about it reminds me of Christ. The wind totally kissed my shoulders as I jogged and poured my little heart out to the Lord.  I instantly felt wrapped in His love.  Man, do I love the LORD!! The wind is my favorite.  I had my hair in a bun but pulled it out to let it go crazy in the storm winds.  Thanks, God, for the wind!! I love that feeling in your lungs :)

I tend to look up to the sky as I talk with God.  I love the moon and stars <3 I looked up as I rounded the corner and asked the Lord if He would let me not be so vigilant of my surroundings and let me just jog and breathe Him in without having to be on guard of a nutjob lurking around.  Then I just decided to go on faith that He will watch over me, so I can just give my burdens to Him to carry for the evening as I rest in Him.

The next lap around the clouds moved.   The clouds were shaped like hands towards the moon and I smiled as i said, "are those Your hands?"  Joking with God.  Deep breath.   I jumped into those giant hands mentally.   I smiled up and said, "I know I am a pain in Your butt, Papa, I'm sorry.....(sigh).....but You know I LOVE YOU and just want to follow You all of my days."  Not expecting it, He said "I love you, too."  I busted out laughing and saying "Lord, I know that" :) I just kept laughing and smiling. I couldnt stop giggling.  If one of the neighbors were out, they definitely think I am crazy.   If there is one thing I do not doubt it is that the Lord of the Universe loves me.  No questioning that...  He is in love with this kid of His.  I was tired and asked Him to carry me one more lap (nothing about this body yells runner, so yes, I die after a few laps and need to walk some more).  He did.   I tell Him I wish we all knew Him like I know Him.  I wish we all could get high on Your Love.  He says we all can.  I say a blanket prayer for todos.

Great talk with the Creator tonight.  I heard exactly what I needed to hear.


One of the songs was something I downloaded yearssssssss ago when I first started to come to Christ, Natalie Grant's I Will Be.  It was so loud and perfect.  I didnt even remember it.

One heart, one voice
Living out love in this world of noise
My dream and my joy
Giving you all I have made a choice
Desperately I'm waiting
To answer your calling

[Chorus:]
I will be a candle in the darkness
I will be the hand of heaven above
I will be a mirror that reflects your
Endless love
I will be the hope among the hopeless
Where there is conflict I will be peace
Only by the power of your spirit that's living in me
I will be

Your heart, your plan
Give me your eyes help me understand
My feet, my hands
Holding out living hope to every man
Knowing what you've made me
With every single heartbeat

Gracious, Gentle and Kind
Knowing that your love will shine
Through mine

This little light of mine, I'm gonna
Let it shine
This little light of mine, yeah

Perfectttttttttt.  But, really, I expect that from our Savior <3

Then,  Wyclef Feat Akon and Lil Wayne  came on singing some Dolla Dolla Bill Ya'll??  song and I cracked up laughing again.  Time to shake it in the street and dance with Jesus.  NO handstands or straddles in the street this time.  Right before Honduras I hurt my lower back trying to do some jumps in the street :)  How does one forget that she is 31 and not 17???  :)  HAHA

Peace.  Get you some of that.