Tonight I was in the kids' room in the back of the house trying to pack some things because we are going to stay a night with the mission team at the hotel when they arrive. I remembered I left the front porch door open, so I asked Daniela to go shut it. It is all closed off on the second floor, but there are no bars covering around it. When she got back she had this look on her face and I knew it was a fear look. I have seen it on her multiple times since she moved in... mainly at night when she leaves her bed for mine in panic that she heard something or saw something. She quickly in this low voice said, "I was so scared. I thought I saw someone on the porch when I was closing the door." In a bit of an angry voice because we have talked about this a few times now (anyone coming to the house or being here), "Why didn't you call me!? You need to yell to me as soon as you think someone is here." She explained that no one was there but she freaked herself out thinking she saw someone.
This may be nuts to the every day person, but I tell Daniela that Christ lives in me and that means that I am all powerful in Christ. This is probably the third time I have explained this and I am ALWAYS weary that I won't explain it right to her in my Spanish. I worry that since she also has Jesus as Savior (I think she does), I wonder if she has a hard time understanding why she didn't have "power to save" Mama Espinal. See, that is not the point I am trying to make to her, that we can pray for anything and He will automatically do it. But that His will will always be done and we CAN pray for anything.
Obviously, I am not a super hero, but I do believe that in any given situation, I can pray for divine guidance on how to talk, react, etc, and then be led by the Spirit to follow suit. If something bad happens, it is because God allowed it to happen, but I can let Christ control me through whatever it is.
I want her to pray for her fear and I want to know she has fear because I can cover her in prayer with the Holy Spirit's power. And I also want her to know that when you allow Christ to control you, you can do crazy things with His power. I believe if God wills it, if He tells me to do it, I can command someone crazy out of my house using the name of Jesus Christ. I have never done such a thing, but I believe it. He is God. Because Daniela has Jesus, I believe she can, too. But, I do not think Daniela believes she has that power to do it (yet).
One night we prayed for dreams of Mama Espinal. In the morning Daniela couldn't remember her dreams. She said, "God doesn't have to say yes to my prayers. He is God and He is good" as we laid in bed. I explained this a little bit when she moved in when she was starting to talk more about the details of her mom's death. What an incredible concept for a little kid to understand! Maybe she repeated what I was trying to tell her, but I think she believes it. The next night, her prayer was answered. However, I think God answered it the first night and she didn't remember the dream. I only say that because my Spirit felt it the night I prayed for her.
Anyway, right now fear has a tight grip on her and the devil pulls her under quickly with it. Her face is really scary when she has these moments. She sorta scares me when she looks at me like that. I tell myself in the Spirit that it is nothing, to send it out, we are safe. The Devil doesn't have a fear grip on me. That is one stronghold, I command out of me immediately. Only through practice have I learned to not allow it at all to enter my head with the Spirit. When I lived in Florida alone, I had to learn to just rely on God to care for me. If He allows it, He will still be there with me. I can't change anything but be in the Spirit myself. So what if something does happen? So what? I will make it with Christ no matter what the circumstances. If you allow fear in your head, you can become completely incapacitated...all because the devil has fastened to your mind. (Fear of a situation is our God-given natural response to defense. Daily/weekly constant fears are of the devil.)
Sometimes the devil tells me that I am not strong enough, smart enough, capable of... keeping these two safe if dad was to get out one day or if one of their crazy family members comes, but I truly change my thought to "God, you asked me to do this, you will be our Rescue if the need arises. You will be our Protector and Provider." The thing is, I truly believe that He asked me to do this and I truly believe He will work out the details of our lives. Even if He allows evil in the house, nothing can happen without Christ being with us.
This makes my life so much easier to live. I have no idea. I have no plans. I do not know all the what-ifs people KEEP asking me. Yes, I am doing it alone. Yes, I find that just as nuts as you do. But, I am POSITIVE that night in June God woke me up and said do this.
Matt 16:23 "Get behind me Satan." 1 John 4:4 "...because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."
Commit to practicing those this week. You need those verses cemented in your head.
This may be nuts to the every day person, but I tell Daniela that Christ lives in me and that means that I am all powerful in Christ. This is probably the third time I have explained this and I am ALWAYS weary that I won't explain it right to her in my Spanish. I worry that since she also has Jesus as Savior (I think she does), I wonder if she has a hard time understanding why she didn't have "power to save" Mama Espinal. See, that is not the point I am trying to make to her, that we can pray for anything and He will automatically do it. But that His will will always be done and we CAN pray for anything.
Obviously, I am not a super hero, but I do believe that in any given situation, I can pray for divine guidance on how to talk, react, etc, and then be led by the Spirit to follow suit. If something bad happens, it is because God allowed it to happen, but I can let Christ control me through whatever it is.
I want her to pray for her fear and I want to know she has fear because I can cover her in prayer with the Holy Spirit's power. And I also want her to know that when you allow Christ to control you, you can do crazy things with His power. I believe if God wills it, if He tells me to do it, I can command someone crazy out of my house using the name of Jesus Christ. I have never done such a thing, but I believe it. He is God. Because Daniela has Jesus, I believe she can, too. But, I do not think Daniela believes she has that power to do it (yet).
One night we prayed for dreams of Mama Espinal. In the morning Daniela couldn't remember her dreams. She said, "God doesn't have to say yes to my prayers. He is God and He is good" as we laid in bed. I explained this a little bit when she moved in when she was starting to talk more about the details of her mom's death. What an incredible concept for a little kid to understand! Maybe she repeated what I was trying to tell her, but I think she believes it. The next night, her prayer was answered. However, I think God answered it the first night and she didn't remember the dream. I only say that because my Spirit felt it the night I prayed for her.
Anyway, right now fear has a tight grip on her and the devil pulls her under quickly with it. Her face is really scary when she has these moments. She sorta scares me when she looks at me like that. I tell myself in the Spirit that it is nothing, to send it out, we are safe. The Devil doesn't have a fear grip on me. That is one stronghold, I command out of me immediately. Only through practice have I learned to not allow it at all to enter my head with the Spirit. When I lived in Florida alone, I had to learn to just rely on God to care for me. If He allows it, He will still be there with me. I can't change anything but be in the Spirit myself. So what if something does happen? So what? I will make it with Christ no matter what the circumstances. If you allow fear in your head, you can become completely incapacitated...all because the devil has fastened to your mind. (Fear of a situation is our God-given natural response to defense. Daily/weekly constant fears are of the devil.)
Sometimes the devil tells me that I am not strong enough, smart enough, capable of... keeping these two safe if dad was to get out one day or if one of their crazy family members comes, but I truly change my thought to "God, you asked me to do this, you will be our Rescue if the need arises. You will be our Protector and Provider." The thing is, I truly believe that He asked me to do this and I truly believe He will work out the details of our lives. Even if He allows evil in the house, nothing can happen without Christ being with us.
This makes my life so much easier to live. I have no idea. I have no plans. I do not know all the what-ifs people KEEP asking me. Yes, I am doing it alone. Yes, I find that just as nuts as you do. But, I am POSITIVE that night in June God woke me up and said do this.
Matt 16:23 "Get behind me Satan." 1 John 4:4 "...because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."
Commit to practicing those this week. You need those verses cemented in your head.
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